I don’t know how and why I am still affected by you after so long. You can say I’m kinda disgusted at myself, how I constantly try to slam you (without much success cause you have/had a girlfriend), and how much I still miss you. Yes that disgusts me. I have no idea how I can still hold on to you and your promises like I’m holding on to a thin rope for dear life when all you have ever been proving to me for the past 9 months were that you aren’t someone I can count on, as a boyfriend, or even as a friend. They say time is proof of love. I’ve waited for you for 9 months but I can’t prove to myself how does that account to me loving you. I still wish for you to come back, occasionally when I think of you. And seeing you together with her really made me crazy the whole day. But right now, I’m just mad. Mad at you for treating all the girls in your life like this. You end cause you’re afraid of getting hurt, you end cause you don’t wanna hurt the other party. I say you end cause you’ve been hurt too much and wanna protect yourself.
Wise up please. Start realising who you really want in your life.
Even though I realised you haven’t been there for me much but I’ll always be there for you if you need me. That is if you ever even think of me.
