Thank You!

Feeling real stressed out lately. Really short-tempered and have the tendency to shout at anyone (even my mum FYI) if I’m not happy.

So thank you JingKang for that long long talk today.

He told me I should lower my expectations for everything I do. From his point of view my expectations are too high. But from my own point of view I think it’s still too low. He told me I should try being selfish just for the time being, to stop thinking about what other people think of me and to treat myself better.

I know that even after this talk things will still stay 90% the same. But at least I know I will change it 10%, one step at a time, it’s better than nothing.

Thank you for listening. Not just listening, but giving advices at the same time. It’s hard to find someone who can do both so well.

I have a new goal. To stretch my limits as far as I can. To stop feeling so stress over nothing in particular. Maybe he is right. I should lower my expectations after all.

After a good cry and a good talk, I’m back to normal again.

I love all my friends ^^

Yvett.

Realization

I realized I haven’t been posting in awhile.

I realized that she doesn’t really matter that much to me anymore cause we all are moving on to a new group of friends. Especially her. And especially since after yesterday it’s getting to me.

I realized my birthday is in less than a weeks’ time.

I realized that my bestest/wisest friend isn’t necessarily him/her.

I realized that having a good talk with Ruiwen pulls us together more than we know it.

I realized I haven’t started on BOTH my geography projects. YET.

I realize he likes me.

I realize I like him too.

I realized I don’t like him.

I realized I’ve been really bad to him.

I realized I’m gonna fall sick but I’m eating Mac.

I realized I owe Mr Yong 100 questions cause I failed my EMaths test terribly.

I realized he is going to Malaysia next weekend.

I realize I have to stop realizing things and go start on work.

Updated at 5:40PM

I realized I’ve been posting a lot of controversial stuffs on Facebook.

You made me feel alive
Our hands intertwined
And our hearts were in tuned
You told me I shone brighter than the stars and the moon

You’re the one with the perfect touch
Filled with love and joy and such
A little clueless, but what can I do?
I wish you knew how much i still love you

Guess you’re just like any other guy
Unable to realise how much I cry
I’ll see you in the future sooner or later
Here is my final goodbye to a typical heartbreaker

Updated at 7:01PM

Not going to start anything. Trust me on that.

I realized I’m too reliant on people.

Yvett.

Norm

I’m a weird person.
I have weird habits.
I like to go to weird places on my own.
But I hate weird people.
They’re not my kind.

I’m tired.

Yvett.

Failure

This year’s a failure. I know it’s only the end of the first month and I shouldn’t be saying things like this, but I screwed up so much in just one month I think this word is suitably used in this situation.

• Trusting the wrong person/people

I know many people warned me. I still dived in and ended up feeling stupid. And the realization of the fact that I really actually liked him makes me even more pissed off. Why the hell did I distant myself from him! Jerks makes me pissed, people whom I like and who liked me makes me even more pissed -.-

• Studies

I started this year telling myself I must do well. Guess I got off track.

• Over enthusiasm

Someone tells me he/she needs my help, ok. Bam, I go all out to help them. What do I get in return? Nothing. Not even a thank you. To make it even better, I get ignored by them. If I can, I’ll just stop helping people. I can’t.

I hope things will get better next month. Birthday’s in 13 days, I’m not excited at all.

Yvett.

Shopping

I’m ignoring all the homework I have and shopping online. Gonna bomb my mother’s money.

Total bill $100.10SGD so far. Like very little leah ._. Never mind I still need shoes. And I want a blazer from Topshop/NewLook. OMG MY MOM’S GONNA KILL ME. And she’s gonna tell me she has no money LOL.

I swear I’m going to Sticky tomorrow. I pinky promise everyone who wants me to get something for them. SORRY I took so long cause… Lazy HEH.

I’ve got a new best friend and he’s older than me hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahah. Ok sorry LOL.

PICK UP THE PHONE I WANNA TALK TO YOU STOP RUNNING AWAY FROM THE PROBLEM!

“A wise girl kisses but doesn’t love, listens but doesn’t believe, and leaves before she is left.”

Updated at 9:36PM

I feel sad for my printer. I just finished printing 16 sets of lyrics, each 2 pages long. So that makes 32 pieces of paper and loads of work and ink. I feel like I had just over work my poor printer. I’m gonna be nice to it from now on.

Yvett.

Go away…

Fuck off please.

Went to school today, and every teacher who didn’t see me yesterday told me I looked pale. Did I mentioned it was only my swollen ankle? I wasn’t down with fever or something, so why will I look pale? ._.

Didn’t take my medicine today and my ankle was swollen and hurting like a muthafucking bitch _|_ And that Timothy kept poking at my ankle like it was a toy -.- Sometimes I wonder how does he derive joy from this kind of things.

If anyone of you see me these few days and I didn’t smile at you, it’s not because I don’t like you or something. I’m just not in the mood to smile or talk to you, sorry.

Mummy please make me happy tomorrow been really pissed these few days ):

Updated at 7:20PM

Don’t ask me anything. I’m not in the mood to reply to all those.

I will be ok by tomorrow I promise.

Yvett.

IHML!

WALAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. I’m friggin tired! I didn’t sleep the whole night! But I’m like high the whole day so nobody believes me right! HMPF!

I DON’T FEEL LIKE GOING TO SCHOOL TOMORROW ):

I’m gonna go see a doctor after school for the same old problem -.-

And yes I am attached. Why is everyone suddenly so interested in my relationship status? ._.

I talked and walked like I’m drunk, now I’m gonna sleep like I’m having a hangover.

Yvett.

Trust

Pride? Tell me bout it.

Mad, wasted 45 minutes of my time at Leo meeting. Nobody even came wtf. Did a bit of maths and went to meet Jordan for lunch.

And I realised I forgot to bring my ez-link card out when I was at the bus stop waiting for bus back to Woodlands (I cabbed to school cause I woke up late) -.-

Had Mac, then we walked back to my house. I changed, played with his iPhone for awhile and went over to his house. Played around, went to fetch Gerald. Went back to Jordan’s house. See two retards gaying (Y)

Went home and had dinner, and Amirul and Philemon came over. Raysid came after awhile. Philemon helped me do AMaths LOL. Jordan came and we went down to find him.

Why I meet so many people today ._.

Had AMaths test today. First question’s 2 marks, second question’s 3 marks, and the last question’s 5 marks. I just passed cause I did not know how to do the last question. Fml.

I’m a brizzly. A cute and fuzzy Twitter client (:

Yvett.

Compress!

I’ve been compressing my picture the whole day, trying to get it to less than 700KB. And the compressor stopped at 2,600++KB. Fml.

Had lunch with a quarter of last year’s E2 peeps (L) Really sad a lot of them cannot come ): SORRY I KEPT SCREAMING!

I need to start on my tuition homework.

Yvett.

Complains

I’m friggin pissed.

Firstly, yours truly is really tired. Ok compared to others who’ve done much more work than me they should be more tired, but I get tired easily and my body cannot adjust to the kind of hours they sleep. It’s insane.

Secondly, hunger curbed with a missing $10 for dessert. Stupid Michael! And the stupid cash register at Eighteen Chefs which cheated me of $10 bucks for the second time. And it’s only the second time I’ve been there. Fml.

Thirdly, people in poly think they are so high and mighty when they see secondary school students. Zz. I stepped on this girl’s foot, said sorry, and she fucking stared at me _!_ She was obviously from poly cause she was carrying her obscenely ugly laptop bag around. I shouldn’t had said sorry, should had just stomped on her feet instead. Why do people act like such dogs?

Fourthly, I am absolutely appalled with a certain someone in class. He wants to be invited to everything, wants to know everything, and puts himself into almost EVERY conversation that takes place between me and another certain someone. Dude can you please stop listening to what we’re saying? Even if you do listen can you just leave us alone? It’s none of your business and no one’s bothering to answer your useless questions. And stop saying I won’t fulfill any of the things I wrote on my post its. It’s JUST FOR FUN. Do you honestly think I will be so good as to not sleep in class? No, now fuck off and go study. And stop acting like a bitch just cause I didn’t invite you to anything, don’t you realize how much of a misfit you are?

Fifthly, I have two tests on Friday and I have absolutely no motivation to study or do anything related to maths. Because of my missing $10, I am resolving to staying at home rather than go out to Starbucks. I have told myself that my wallet MUST have $20 at least, so I can’t use the remaining $20 in my wallet. Ok great.

Sixthly, I hate my friend(s). Not gonna mention names.

I’ll try to convince my dad to go get my early birthday present tomorrow instead. NOT GOING TO STICKY ANYMORE. NO MONEY.

Favorite catchphrase of the week: GAY, FML.

FML still.

Yvett.